So today I met with a psychiatrist. After my appointment I called my boyfriend and he joked about the fact that the doctor must not have had me committed because I'm on the phone with him....ha...ha. Anyway, I have recently started counseling to try to get some insight into my binge eating problem and also because I have just been having a hard time in general lately with a newer high-stress job (I'm a foster care worker), a high stress school program, and the whole plight of my weight loss journey. At first I thought that going to get some help would mean that I am failing somehow because I want to be a therapist myself one day and have been working on it for years to get there. Then I realized how ridiculous my thoughts were and that people get therapy for all kinds of reason and I'm not going to be able to progress if I can't gain insight into my own behaviors. I was given a prescription for an anti-depressant, which has a stigma attached to it but at this point I was willing to try anything to help me to "get it together". After talking with my boyfriend, I have decided to wait one month before taking any pills to try and give diet and exercise (and sleep) my best shot and then see how I feel. So today begins a month long experiment. I am going to try to treat my own depression by beginning to exercise daily (something that I haven't done in about a year) and stick to a healthy diet (I'm currently on a Nutrisystem program to try to help with portion control and to retrain my brain). I'm still going to go to counseling once a week and do some cognitive behavioral therapy that focuses on my binge eating habit but I'm just not comfortable with taking a drug to try to feel happy unless it is truly a last resort.
So here's to today, it's kind of an official start date for my weight loss journey that I know will take some time. I'm hoping to start blogging at least every other day to document this journey and will start making these post more interesting.
Today's weight: 287.5 lbs.
Question to Readers : Do you think that becoming healthy leads to becoming happy or do you think that you need to become happy in order to get the motivation to get healthy? What are your thoughts?
